→ my mind was changed bcum dirty

dunno wat the fucking hell is going on!!!

hav a bad mood on today~

i hate everything!

why euu want to scold me like tat?

tat is not my fault~~~

shit!

i hav to do my own work oso~

ya~

i give euu see my behsong face~

bcoz i dun like euu want to ask many question~

euu make me hav more troubles~

euu said im selfish?

so???

i cant hav a bad mood?

i must keep smile everyday?

i should be a gud gurl everyday?

i dunwan~

PLS~~~

i cant control my emotions~

i juz keep quite and go away when euu scold me~

wat can i do?

i never talk back and i wont do tat in the future time oso...

juz let euu speak ur own~

today after skul

when i reached home

i saw a letter post by skul

is surat amaran...

since i study in SK

i never received surat amaran~

dis is first time i received

my class teacher

a crazy woman~

she had said something brainless before

she said：不要跟我说你不知道，你只可以说你不明白～

i foget ald~but almost the same sentence~

wat is the difference between dunno and dun understand???

she always send surat amaran for us~

i think more than half of my classmate will receive~

last year...

i absenced more than 10 days

but my class teacher juz ask me to write a letter~

and now~

from January until August

i juz absenced 11 days~

i dun think so tat is serious...

for me.

im ald be a gud student.

the rubbish surat

i dun care~

today Jessie said tat if time will stop a while

everyone stop doing their own work and do not hav any sensation

she wanna slap someone

ya

i want to do tat oso

im very excited to do tat~ 

now i can understand why hav vandalism

im not agree thier behavior

but tat is a gud way to relieve stress~

euu dont think so?

i hav a feel wanna destroy everything oso~

i wan to try~

but i noe i cant do it...

i will ditangkap pergi balai polis nanti~

and

i hav an idea tat is no gud

something abnormality...

i had seen a video

a guy pull the gurls bra at anyway

bfore dis i think dis guy should go to die

but now~

i can understand his action

i hav same feel with him

mayb do like tat will be more happy~

i wan to do like tat oso~

but not pull everyone punya lah

juz somebody i dunlike

wat happen to me?

i macam hav same feel with them~

do like tat is so cigek~

but actually

i juz can imagine

i wont do like tat

and i cant do like tat

im juz a gurl

i cant do anything...

i really dunno wat happen to me

nid to see counsellor?

dis is a kind of sickness?

iiiiak~~~

i dunno

dunno

dunno

dunno

i hav a psycosis?

why my behavior bcum weird and my mind bcum dirty?